Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Faan Chin ?


Hm ... discussed this earlier on the phone ... I haven't mentioned and thought of these phrases for a while ... maybe my life is fortunate and maybe my life is full of default. Sometimes, I don't get it ... people seems to disregard your kindness ... do they care, do they treasure? What should I do? I am faan chin too ... sigh ... 3 yrs ago I was, now I am too ...

I don't think I'm well these days ... not really sick ... but always so sleepy and tired at work ... i just hate the cube I'm in now ... but I don't know how to improve it. And now it's the middle of night ... I can tell my physical is going down in slope ... and the 24-hour fitness deal is gone .. sigh.

Past weekend ... long 3-day one ... finally laid down the concrete with my parents in the front yard ... now I realized how much work that is and afterall, it's not as difficult as I imagined, but the fun part is how to level out the floor ... 28 bags of 60-lbs of concrete mix .. crazy huh ... i never thought of that ... then how heavy is the road ? wow ...

I feel so bad that my parents finished the last block themselves ... while I was window shopping in SF. And thanks Sarah for taking them to buy the last 2 bags of concrete. I always think I'm taking care of them now, but it's the opposite, they're still taking _VERY_ good care of me ... See ... faan chin ah ... why why ... can i be a better person? Can I stay away with all my bad habit?

Friday, February 17, 2006

V's Day ..

Few days ago was the V's day everyone loves and hates ... And this is quite a special one for me this time ... I spent the night with her in my office ... not like we're doing something secret here, but I was just working with someone from all over the world (Sweden, London, India) to get some issue reslolved.

However, I am glad that I brought some surprises to 2 of my very good friends. Sometimes, I wish I can be the one to bring something special to human mankinds .. haha ... like super-man or mother theresa. And in fact, if I can just make 1 person feel special for a day, for a few hours ... which is already very good enough. And I did it few days ago ...

Friday, February 03, 2006

Nothing ...

Nothing to write ah ... but just want to capture the moment ... I dunno what I'm thinking now, I can tell my body is getting weak ... so tired and got sweaty palm ... wat's up with me ?

I see some sort of signal light in front of me, but I don't know what that is ... is it something I shoud pretend I didn't see? Or I should try to run even faster to see the sign sooner? Or I should take it slow and hope that I dun see the signal that would be sad anyways?

Or there is just nothing ... it's a matter of time ... or "jap jurk" of life ... or being stubborn.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Life is always manic

Wow ... it's been 3 months I haven't post anything.

Someone somehow somewhere would enter your life without a note ... and you just can't control ... somehow sometime someone would just leave your life suddenly too ... but leaves so much traces behind you ...

What they left behind could be memorable and could be unforgettable ... I would rather remember all the bad side of things so I would not repeat them again ... however, life is also balanced ... the bad things were usually a result of some unusual, unexpecting, exciting and happy deeds ... it's just a seed of sins ... growing and growing, one day you will hit the pain .. but we still want to grow it ...

If we can all pick again ... what would we do ...